WHY????!!!

If ...

if i think further , it wont happened..

i feel so troubled coz i need to help him , i promised to deliver his phone to his cousin, sister or whoever ...

u know what???!! it so far , i need to go orchard for ur ****** sake n go back?! whose phone is that? who needs who??! im busy now.. why dont u understand.. why dont u just go to my place???!! wtH.... JUST NOW U EVEN GO TO MOVIE! SHIT!

i feel so pissed.. sometimes why ppl dont care abt others. everytme i help, intention of helping, at the end its always getting me feel troubled. im helping here but @ the end , ..... ;( just if somebody understands...

im just a person... not an angel whose heart is so pure n have long winded river of patience...

i hate ppl n myself sometimes.. we all egoist..

whatever we do, even blinking, its all just for our own good..

why r we so egoist?

sin... i make sins everyday, including this .. please God, help me to be more patient, aware , n smart plus tough .. to face ppl.. i dont want to be used anymore.. at least , i dont ever feel so...

FORGIVENESS

Luke 17:3-4 (King James Version)

³Take heed to yourselves: If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him; and if he repent, forgive him.

⁴And if he trespass against thee seven times in a day, and seven times in a day turn again to thee, saying, I repent; thou shalt forgive him.

To all whoever read my blog.. if there is anyone...

well, these days i've been facing a problem to forgive..

i need to forgive my father.. what i hate the most of him is his ignorance and sayings which hurt my sister's heart the most.. i dont know whether u guys all have been facing the same problem , HATES WHOEVER IT IS.

sometimes i can tell i dont hate anyone.. but actually i still have a wound in my heart that is not recovered yet. u just try to forget it or u feels like get used to it. U'll not notice it until something happened related to the person that make u hate them, then u began crying, hating them again (them might means, family, friends, pets, hahahhahah ) . For me, it feels like emptiness, undescribed weird feelings, maybe sadness, hatred, dissapointed. it maybe dissapearred sometimes but can reappear until u erase it n just let it go by forgiving.

Luke 17 :3-4 gave me strength and faith that i need to forgive them (whoever i hate) . because God is love, and a form of love is to forgive and as His children we have to share His love as well..... ;)

i cant do anything to my father, to change him, i need to start first by making changes and pray for him and my family. im wishing i have courage to forgive hm completely and open a fresh page when im going back later. PLEASE GOD , HELP ME, US...

I heard a few stories about my friends' family condition. My father is just one normal easy problem that can be said as nothing cmpared to them. I have a friend, whose father is a gambler, n he has to work for the whole family to make a living , even it means that he has to sacrifice his health , dreams, and if possible , he is willing to trade his own life for sake of family. another one, maybe not so tragic, she has 2 siblings. she is the middle one. everything was fine, the bigger brother close with his father, and she herself to the mother. till one day, a little sister came and took all of her mother's attention. cause of that she became highly inferior, she tend to stay away from her parents and fam. She gave herself to her friends, she hated home. But, God is love. she could forgive her mother whom she thought neglected her before (she ,i think, didnt know for sure why she hated her mother. forget.) the best thing is that she is now very independent cause she already get used to prepare everything herself. Sometimes, u'll never know what all of these bad things happened. But HE ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN. SOMETHING BETTER ALWAYS AHEAD OF US. WE JUST CANT SEE IT NOW, BUT WE JUST NEED TO STAND STILL, LEAN ON HIM AND WAIT.......

FORGIVING IS HARD BUT BY HIS HELP WE CAN....

=)

notes of the day..

IF U HAVE NO WAY TO TURN TO...

Hello.. :)

im happy today.. i went to the church this morning, sing songs and heard preaching, but somehow i forget about it alr.. then go to work and at night i went to a revival meeting @stadium.

im hoping this sharing can share u something..

after i heard the preach, i felt like my faith is strengthened..

So, i hope u felt the same way like i do after u read this..

IMPORTANT THING TO DO IS, OPEN UR HEART, CAUSE THE HEART IS THE KEY

HAVE U EVER THINK , WHY DO I HAVE TO BELIEVE IN CHRISTIANITY?

other than any other religions in this world? (just for info, the preaching was brought by Stephen Tong, an Indonesian preacher whose name should be quite famous i think.., hopefully u know him, or just google him)

The answer he gave is very simple and i think its true... He said, because no other religion said that they have a way of saving ur life. i have a book that can give u knowledge about other religions but its written in indo n i havent read it as well.. hahhahahha =D

NEXT QUESTION, I DONT BELIEVE IN BIBLE , I DONT BELIEVE IN GOD

if u dont believe in bible, so what kind of book is that? that have the beginning and the premonition of the end of the world that now is happening? that give u stories and way to get a salvation? if its just a book, what kind of book is it if its not from God? for additional info, bible consists of chapters that is written by different people and era, and all of them some sort of linked to each other. Moreover, when i dont know when and why exactly, but a long time ago when Judism or something didnt like these scriptures, they tried to burn it but they could never fnd it.. somehow after those people gone these scriptures could be found and now, as u can see, bible is even translated into a lot of languages..

if God not exist, how come those scriptures could be found again and how come the bible's chapters linked to each other? coincidence maybe happens just once not some sort of arranged like this isnt it?

WHY DO I NEED TO GO TO CHURCH?

Do u know that our God is trinity? He has a form of God Himself, A son and Holy Spirit. they are 1, but 3, im kind of confused about this thing.. its weird but its true.. i think , i can say somekind of 3 in 1, and 1 in 3. Holy spirit is the one who has the power to change somebody's heart and behaviour . To accept God, is a blessing. U dont have to work on it, cause God Himself gave this opportunity to u. I feel so lucky, i know Him long ago.. and i think it maybe ur turn.. =) Not every person likes God, some of them deniying His presence somehow, they just dont listen n open their heart.. Back to the main question. After the Holy Spirit did Its work, u need words to listen to, and then faith comes. If ur faith has come, u still need words taht can strengthened ur faith, cause along with whatever happened in ur life, u change... u need something to keep u still in the track, and dont forget to READ THE BIBLE. BIBLE IS HIS WORDS, TRULLY HIS.

just a gentle reminder for u, being a christian is not easy and hard, but dont u ever related prosperity , health on watever materialistic things in ur mind. Accept Him sometimes u begin to have more temptations, some people confront u, and many other bad things might be happenning to u. If u see it from a human perspective its very bad, but HE IS ALIVE AND ALWAYS WATCHING EACH OF US EVERYTIME. HE NEVER STOPS. I have a faith, watever happened to me is the best .. HE ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN BENEATH IT.

LAST QUESTION, TO BE REFLECTED... IF U DONT BELIEVE HIM, WHOELSE U GONNA BELIEVE?

urself? money? bussiness? friends? or what? all of those things is not worth of being trusted, its all very dynamic and unreliable. somehow deep inside ur heart u need comfort and peace, taht only God who is immortal , powerful , and never made mistakes who u could rely on.

if u blame God about bad things that happened , is it ok? I did this sometimes as well, im sorry, forgive me Father.I tell u something, we are born sinned and we supposed to be dead. We dont deserve eternity but He gave His Son , the only Son to be crossed ,in order to save our souls. Plus, He is the Creator of all things, including u and me.. and we dont deserve to even a word to our creator right? But, He is love, He gave us so much love to choose and make decisions, end up, we overdoing our rights to choose, we even blame Him for things that happened to us and never said that its His blessing that i could live in this world, all good things that happened in our lives. We think that we deserve it but actually we are not.

if u have question, why do i have to believe in ur God rather than my God? if our God is the same, He'll listen to u, and after u accept Him, u started see changes in good ways. U always have peace , comfort and content. if u pay attention to my posts lately, i felt so insecure, and the problem came from this thing, MY FAITH WAS FADING. I am the prove that without Him, Im so negative.

i feel so happy, finally, i can write something like this. I need to share it , n the only way to do things like this, is by blogging. can fb support this long winding texts?

As conclusion, this text is a summary and a bit of my own stuff as a respond after listening to the revival meeting i had just now by Stephen Tong. I feel it myself, after this kind of thing i can feel the difference, something good but i cant described it. its true that u need to have body , soul, and spiritual needs to be contented. God is exist and if u wanna know Him, read the bible. i need to read Bible again.. its been so long since i last read it... i wish this post has a value towards the reader (s) if any. But, i have faith someone will read it.. =) i wish that what i wrote is an answer for ur question that u have all these time. BUT THE KEY IS , OPEN UR HEART FIRST. HE ALWAYS AROUND, ITS JUST U WHO CANT SEE HIM...

GOD BLESS US~~ =)

THANKS FATHER....

helllloooo

im just wanna share and hopefully whoever read this note will also praying for her ..

one of my friend, she is very though, she still cherish and act as if nothing's happening

i didnt know the real details of it but,

her parents suddenly separated... so this coming dec, she maybe not going back..

she has a brother , just her and her brother. Her brother has to go to his aunty's house, now at her home there's only her grandma..

i dont know what im going to do if i were her..

family is very important..

maybe some ppl said that family is what?? i dont need it or watever...

but family is the root of who u are..

u r now is actually a result of ur family habit, condition, principles, teachings, everything..

believe it or not... but, some of it also comes from ur environment n friends..

if u have a good mom and dad who always take care of u its a blessing..

if they are still beside u and always be there for u , u should fill content

im quite happy with mine.. =)

im feeling blessed for them as well...

pray for her , God, please give her strength. whatever happened to her is for her own good.. But, if i can ask something, please God, make her parents together again..

but its all Ur plan.. Thanks God for everything.. especially my parents and my family..

Thank you for opening my eyes , so that I can see how lucky I am..

Thanks God cause Im still alive... healthily...

=)

Thanks Father..