hellow again!
been awhile missing from this blogging though =). i went for a graduation trip to bali, lombok, gili, jogja and lastly bandung in 2 weeks. it wassss really2 awesome! i was so content and happy, hopefully this spirit still last till forever. =D
i saw not much worries of the future for now. What i can do now is not missing any action. i like to think, but not doing anything about it. that was the source of all the emo ness that i had. i need to read more books as well. it does give me a more self contentment and somehw make me love myself slightly better. It was a great2 holiday. i was tired but happy and content. so far it gave me a more positive energy.
i may not still be a good advisor nor a good listener, nor a good writter. but i know that i am a good giver. i can give my heart to the person i care. i have a wide smile and laughter which maybe people like. i have warmth. from now on, no more chasing my crush! okie? i was a bit tempted to talk to him n stuff again, i was missing from church for almost a month. i saw him this morning during the praising time, he shook my hand and smile while saying "ikem". my heart thumps, luckily my face not red. i went to the toilet and could not help myself from smilling. looking at my ungorgeous self ( i have not yet slept, i had no make up, just a specs). my heart slows down and i came back to my seat. the preacher preached for 1 hour +-. i could not really concentrate though. i was there in the same room till the whole entire ceremony ends. he was sitting at the back rows from the podium, he came in front to chit chat and stuff with the singers today. i was surprised, owh, he is close with her (she got bf alr, not a competitor, wtf! lol!)now. i saw him in a glimpse i was talking to a lot of other people at that time about pass and all. i am just wondering, is he looking at me as well? to think about it, i still cannot get rid of him from my mind, but, i am now more controlled i think, it was still sweet. like a small confetti in my mouth. just a taste of it, till it is gone, then im fine =). my love? if u call it love? reduced, which is good!
the simplest quote which help me get through was
" if there is no chemistry, then it is not it! chill, do not be too serious over relationship."
we have no chemistry, what i should do, be happy, and mingle more, meet morreee people, be yourself, be more positive. =D
