i was in the bus, a lot of Indians were there. I went back from a hang out, bday drinking party for his friend's bday and bar closing drinking day. Well, just suddenly thinking, now this Caucasian guy, is around 52-53 i suppose. He is my boss in the company im interning currently. He was just married 2-3 years ago with a Singaporean lady, whom i suppose like not to have kids. No kids in their marriage so far, from his story, every couple of months, he'll just take his wife for a vacation elsewhere. which i think, lovely!
Meanwhile, in the bus, i saw Indians, maybe around 23-40 years old max, they are coolies. After work, they are going home, along with their phones, they started to listen to the music, messaging, calling, and so on. I just wander, hey, maybe some of them working so hard here to make their family alive, or to make their kids keep studying. live has never been "good" in my context for them. or for people who are in such a young age, make themselves prepare for marriage a couple of years later.
wow. life is just so far different.
Asians, career minded, even my parents, they married pretty late, 26 to 28, having me at the age of 30, which are considered a bit late compared to the ones in rural areas, they married and having kids might be in a younger age, some of them even in the age of 16 and having kids a year later, which is 17. Which i think, omg! my age 3 years ago with kids??! Meanwhile, Caucasian, they just got married age around maybe 30+ or later? sort of?
Marriage and kids as the measurement of happiness? or just a peer pressure? i dont really know..
Let's say its for happiness which is such an unmeasured word. For some, they said, have kids, for some, no kids. For some Godly lives, some others, no God, i do things for my own. and so on and so on. But whatever it is, nobody wants to feel the opposite.
some random maybe useless thoughts.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
I loved life, but sadly life never love me back.
-jonathan paljor-
i just felt sometimes life is another dream. in a day you may have the happiest moment, the next day or even second you may lost it in a blink of an eye.
life will be really really easy and simple if humans have no hearts, nobody feels hurt and life will be just about survival which is sad in the eye of a big hearted man.
life is like a movie. you are the main actor, the eye is your camera, your heart is the spectator. Your brain record all the things and put it in the shelves accordingly each day. Sometimes, if the recording is not so interesting they will be just thrown or put near the dumping area. Some really good, happy, when the spectator feels emotionally attached, they will be kept in a special space called, memory.
Memory is a space that kept all the most fatal moments in life, it is a room, with a video player and tv being put next to best video's shelves. privately, secretly a nice place only you alone able to rewatched them. Indulged, cried, be crazy, is all up to you. Nobody else judge the movie as best as you, nobody else commenting, nobody disturbs.
Whether your purpose is to indulge, to learn, or just tidy up all the mess and retidying it, they are all your choice.
Be wise to use that privilege.
-jonathan paljor-
i just felt sometimes life is another dream. in a day you may have the happiest moment, the next day or even second you may lost it in a blink of an eye.
life will be really really easy and simple if humans have no hearts, nobody feels hurt and life will be just about survival which is sad in the eye of a big hearted man.
life is like a movie. you are the main actor, the eye is your camera, your heart is the spectator. Your brain record all the things and put it in the shelves accordingly each day. Sometimes, if the recording is not so interesting they will be just thrown or put near the dumping area. Some really good, happy, when the spectator feels emotionally attached, they will be kept in a special space called, memory.
Memory is a space that kept all the most fatal moments in life, it is a room, with a video player and tv being put next to best video's shelves. privately, secretly a nice place only you alone able to rewatched them. Indulged, cried, be crazy, is all up to you. Nobody else judge the movie as best as you, nobody else commenting, nobody disturbs.
Whether your purpose is to indulge, to learn, or just tidy up all the mess and retidying it, they are all your choice.
Be wise to use that privilege.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Watch your heart
WOOT WOOT WOOT!!
GOOD MORNING ALLLL!
=)
its kinda too early to be emo but, thats the purpose of blog rite? makes you a bit happier when you cant really tell anyone about your thoughts. Welll, i just think why? why i always like a person who will just not belong to me? kinda funny but everytime i like someone, they will go away, or belongs to somebody else's just in a blink of an eye.
For guys, maybe you can ask me to like you somehow, and not so long after that you can have somebody beside you. haahhaha its a fact man. im telling you.
Its kinda fun to have an eyecandy rather than nothing anyway. i had some thrill when i saw him, i would like to know whats happpening, gossiping around with my friends, try to cover up my feelings to anyone. to think about it, its kinda funny, really. even though, i should NEVER really fall to anyone.
JUST watch your heart before it flies too far.
GOOD MORNING ALLLL!
=)
its kinda too early to be emo but, thats the purpose of blog rite? makes you a bit happier when you cant really tell anyone about your thoughts. Welll, i just think why? why i always like a person who will just not belong to me? kinda funny but everytime i like someone, they will go away, or belongs to somebody else's just in a blink of an eye.
For guys, maybe you can ask me to like you somehow, and not so long after that you can have somebody beside you. haahhaha its a fact man. im telling you.
Its kinda fun to have an eyecandy rather than nothing anyway. i had some thrill when i saw him, i would like to know whats happpening, gossiping around with my friends, try to cover up my feelings to anyone. to think about it, its kinda funny, really. even though, i should NEVER really fall to anyone.
JUST watch your heart before it flies too far.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
H3llooowwwww ~~~~ =)
a lot of things have been happening during this holiday.
go thailand woohooo!!!
doing some shitty works
personal unfinished yet project
helping church (rarely) which was fun!
celebrating new year with fam
go around the town like a tourist
now! sitting in front of comp waiting for the schooling time count down... arrrggghhhh!!!
HOLIDAY IS ALMOST OVEERRRRR!!!!!
=.=
hmmm kita coba sekarang mengasah kemampuan berpantun saya.. hahhaha! mudah2an ok lah y >,<
brat bret brot cuit cuit
suara kentut si emak sebelah
aduh boke amit2
mau ini itu ga boleh lahhhh
panas2 minum coca cola kata singaporean, so shock!
kata emak2 coca-cola bau tumbila
si mbak lagi masak2
buset, wanginya ujubilah!
buah salak
buah simalakama
kalo tersedak
ketawa aja hahahhaah
teu nyambuuuunnnggggg
lol
ok.. byeeee....
kyny kemampuan g masi terpendam di belahan otak g yg laen nih...
seeee yoooouuuu
The Grey
greeting after a zillion years ever posting anything on my blog.
Well, a lot of things to cover up!
Hmmm, most amazing news so far, Felicia and Fandy now marrieeedddd!! =D
happy for them =)
Today is my first day of internship in onEvent which is just accross my aunts place. =) Back to the thoughts i have been thinking on, World is just designed perfectly.
One day,
I was sitting on my own in Subway, eating my warm sub while observing the whole place and people in there. There are quite a number, different raise around. 3 Singaporean secondary students were laughing, chit chatting about, maybe, their days, Secondary kids, yeah, you know ;P. Their back were a family, Caucasian, 2 kids and themselves. I was sitting on the second row next to the Secondary kids. Behind me myself, i cant see, and not be bothered as well. But next to my table, an Indian guy was just start eating his lunch while i was finishing mine. Staring at his BB for a while and reading the news at the next second. He is quite plum, but still nice to look at. Behind him another 3 Secondary students, 3 boys, whom talking about politics, which i think was they are quite a nerd but the intelligent ones. They were talking about it enthusiastically, which made me think on my own.
a country ruled by a man.
The world, i might say might be ruled by one man as well.
Even though i dont know who that is.
It is no longer a secret, people longing for power and success, who doesn't?
Respect.
Respect is the gift that you will get.
All of this thing made by the thing called greed. Meet the greed, people needs greed in order to survive. Ambition, to live, have a good live and all that. Amazingly, God knows long before and created us this way to live. If humans didnt fall into sin, they wont really alive i might say, they wont need any greeds to live.
Greed is created to give a person ambition, desire which make them wanna achieve it wether its right or wrong, it do depends on the person. Greeds and all those ambition make the world go around. People with bigger ambition and will, they are standing on the top of the survival pyramid, you may called them boss. While the lesser ones will sadly work and sit for them, which we called work to live. Even though the factor of luck we cannot just forget them in this world. But, greed, ambition, desire factors still works. If they have no desire to get more, they may be just fine, still in the same level of wealth but if they don't, they may fall, never get up, and return back to their seat.
Without greed, ambition and desire, alot of things wont be going. Our Creator is not exist physically, how does the world going? Who is ruling who?
While power exist, a man able to rule many, wether they want it or not, you have no choice but to obey. Painfully speaking, someone has to work in oder to make the world "go around".
Seemed to me, it is all just a chain, very very long, invisible, mind f*ucking food chain.
Greed, ambition and desire? is it 'black' or "white"?
I will say, it is grey.
Well, a lot of things to cover up!
Hmmm, most amazing news so far, Felicia and Fandy now marrieeedddd!! =D
happy for them =)
Today is my first day of internship in onEvent which is just accross my aunts place. =) Back to the thoughts i have been thinking on, World is just designed perfectly.
One day,
I was sitting on my own in Subway, eating my warm sub while observing the whole place and people in there. There are quite a number, different raise around. 3 Singaporean secondary students were laughing, chit chatting about, maybe, their days, Secondary kids, yeah, you know ;P. Their back were a family, Caucasian, 2 kids and themselves. I was sitting on the second row next to the Secondary kids. Behind me myself, i cant see, and not be bothered as well. But next to my table, an Indian guy was just start eating his lunch while i was finishing mine. Staring at his BB for a while and reading the news at the next second. He is quite plum, but still nice to look at. Behind him another 3 Secondary students, 3 boys, whom talking about politics, which i think was they are quite a nerd but the intelligent ones. They were talking about it enthusiastically, which made me think on my own.
a country ruled by a man.
The world, i might say might be ruled by one man as well.
Even though i dont know who that is.
It is no longer a secret, people longing for power and success, who doesn't?
Respect.
Respect is the gift that you will get.
All of this thing made by the thing called greed. Meet the greed, people needs greed in order to survive. Ambition, to live, have a good live and all that. Amazingly, God knows long before and created us this way to live. If humans didnt fall into sin, they wont really alive i might say, they wont need any greeds to live.
Greed is created to give a person ambition, desire which make them wanna achieve it wether its right or wrong, it do depends on the person. Greeds and all those ambition make the world go around. People with bigger ambition and will, they are standing on the top of the survival pyramid, you may called them boss. While the lesser ones will sadly work and sit for them, which we called work to live. Even though the factor of luck we cannot just forget them in this world. But, greed, ambition, desire factors still works. If they have no desire to get more, they may be just fine, still in the same level of wealth but if they don't, they may fall, never get up, and return back to their seat.
Without greed, ambition and desire, alot of things wont be going. Our Creator is not exist physically, how does the world going? Who is ruling who?
While power exist, a man able to rule many, wether they want it or not, you have no choice but to obey. Painfully speaking, someone has to work in oder to make the world "go around".
Seemed to me, it is all just a chain, very very long, invisible, mind f*ucking food chain.
Greed, ambition and desire? is it 'black' or "white"?
I will say, it is grey.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
The day before doomsday
Was having a great fun, shopping with my friend, Melly.
Lovely Taurus girl i've ever known. heheheh
I really enjoyed that moment, just need more time, then we could be a really close bestfriend i guess.
=)
a lot has been happening since last time i blogged.
I cut and dyed my hair.
Meet my longlost old friends in highschool, once love him but not anymore. hgahahaha lol.
Missing from school for total 10 freaking days. Was a great fun!
Join PPIS, as an ITPM member where i felt like its just clerikal job.
Doing ISF, Indo festival and make my whole body full of hardly erased paints.
Watching some love real life story in church. Wonder how its gonna end, happy? hope so =)
Been really close with jee min. She is my besties nw. The most kind hearted, gullible, ever. love her the most.
Glad that so far i'm still alive and well, even though im getting fatter like a drum. lol
errrrmmm
last but not least, thanks God, for the blessings taht i had in my life so far. These days U've been STRENGTHENING me about faith. Even though i never asked, not realizing it, u just providing it for me.
Fated faith. Is it true?
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