28/12/12

the day it was all written i think in our God's personal diary of our life. I met this friends last holiday. They were a group of initially 9  with the main 4 characters in them. Seeing their love to each other and care, i saw so much friendship which i adore and sometimes the feeling of not willing to let go as well. btw, im now in my hometown, school holiday which thought coming to school was such a freaking nightmare, i had better not to think about it. 

anyways. the thought of getting older, family and stuff is never getting simpler. instead, through stories of family problems, relationship problems, those kind of things even makes life seemed to me even more complicated. but today, alot of contrast being brought into my vocabulary of experiences which lesson taken, might become useful to prepare myself in the near future. I learnt a lesson that true friends would be there for u through the good and the bad, 

In was a cloudy afternoon, suddenly my phone rang. It was my friend, called and suddenly just asked me and my sist out for a talk for tommorow's plan to meet my other friend, initial, C proposed gonna be girlfriend. He is called N, the one who called me was H. by the time we reached the end of the street i was living at, i saw a car, full of 3 other people, which means, it would be damn tight here broh. lol. Anways, it was then raining not so long after. We were just driving around planning to go some unknown place but found out wouldnt be nice as to chat about those kind of "stuff". At the end, we just drove around and just parked ourselves to the neares mall just max was like 500-700m just around our house. Then, we just bought some snacks and freaking i didnt know how long it takes to just decide waht and what time the 'event' to meet our dearest 2 friends meeting up tommorow. 

after such a long long winded discussion of just a meeting we ended up this discussion, besides, one of us need to go but after some again random agreement we just decided, ok, lets go have some dinner. The dinner was great we ate various meat btw, snake, chicken, beef and lastly lizard? small komodo thing. ahahha it was so nice btw. Then during the journey to home, our friend, K was telling us about his love long distance relationship gonna be ever. he was we didnt really sure waht he was actually wanted to find out. Because at the end of his 2 months days of approaching this girl, he wanted to really found out whether they should be together instead, at the same time meaning, the girl would be asked to join his journey in this town instead of hers. Well, it was such controversial 2 months time to me, to decide and to ask whether such things should be asked. My beloved mom, were just telling me, that things have just changed, and to her, life is just another adventure, which incident, tripped off by the rocks of life will be such inevitable journey. I learnt, things had changed, 2 months now is such a considerably a long time, which i was ideally thinking supposingly 6 months. 

i wrote shit btw, it was just my journey today, what i was thinking and i thought was right to be done. i personally believed such question should be asked after a true relationship had been made for such a time. However, some controversial thoughts came up, if this kinda thing never been asked, where is this relationship gonna be going to? such pointless, tiring, time consuming acts would complicate when feelings come about the eyes of logical objectivity. at the end of the story, love would be asking for a sacrifice. the question would be, whose ego gonna be sacrificed, would be there any? 

when storms seemed to cover up your way, the stong Christians would asked God, what they should do and asked Him about His plan. Thanks God, for this writting platform i always liked to do. reminded that at the end its not only the logic would take a place of success, but the path which God had been preparing for us. God is there, but we humans like to forget His hands involvement in our life. Such a long lost kid, let us always be reminded with the presence and God's guidance. =)