awkwardness

i just really realized and feel, time does tests evrything and instant things wont last taht long or have no side effects either.

well, today was a rainy day but i felt quite happy cause i am able to meet my dearest besties at school. yeah, the day was just great till the moment that message came. words came out. how r u doing kid? he asked me. have been such a weird thing to occur, cause he had never even called me with my stay in sg for almost 4 years. me, and my sist are just not close to him. but all of sudden he became too close? asked how do i do for like 3 consequtive days which i felt like its been a week. so awkward. really. was trying to be less formal but it seemed it did not work though.

our relationship have never been that close all these years. i am not closing that door i guess. its just that i think it sounds like an irony when supposingly ur second most important person in your life wanted to make gaps even closer between us. nothing is instant i suppose. sudden change 180 degree like this is too extreme i felt. i felt threatened? im not really sure what is that feeling but yeah, it did not come naturally either. sad i guess. but yeah, sometimes its just the fact and i just have no idea to fix it either. i felt a bit guilty but i cant really help it too.

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