hello...
today... was great i've done so many things and get so many things to reflect..
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i've solved the faxing problem with help of my maid and my mom secretary.. i've done housework..
i've spent so much money on eating.. i've seen a really nice fashion show at school.. many pretty girls were there..
hahhahah
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im just realized...
i was walking to the bus stop... waiting for the green light.. then.. 139 bus, as usual passed by in front of my eyes!!! i was quite sad and pissed.. regretting the bus.. so i have to wait for several minutes for another 139 bus..
you know what.. the second bus became better.. im just realized.. sometimes He made us failed or not achieving what we hope to be true... but then.. it doesnt mean you totally failed.. maybe He just asked to wait .. for a better one.. you must be sure another bus will come.. same as your hope.. at least one of those hope will come true .. the thing is you dont know how long you have to wait.. patience.. then see.. =)

second!!
i was just dipped my feet into the pool.. then just play with the water with my hand..
i felt that water can not be grabbed.. you can just try to contain it bare hands.. but how long can you stand holding teh water? at the end the water will escape from tiny holes you made in your hands.. you can just feel the water.. it's there and its cold..
i think its related to understand people and God..
However hard you try to understand them the more you can not understand them.. ( when you tried to squeezed the water.. the water will gone faster, dripping here and there) people's mind and God are full of mystery.. what you know about them is just as scope of water from a pool or sea?? i think the more you try to understand the more you confused .. at the end.. you'll be dissapointed or confused.. how? why? i just feel like so..
e.g: many people try to understand Him in just completely human mind.. (thinker??/ sociologist/whatever they are called) until one day they were stuck with one unanswerable question.. they became depressed and SUICIDE!! with all human mind we can never understand Him completely.. you can know some things about Him but not all.. when you cant find the answer dont keep thinking of it.. accept it or maybe asked other people with better understanding of Him.. He is God.. we can understand what He wants and what He likes/dislikes.. but we can never understand the whole thing of Him... e.g: how He really created this world of imperfection? til now there's no exact evidence to prove how the earth and galaxy was created.. same as friends.. you can know them well.. but how well? even they are so close to you at the end you'll sometimes dont understand them and you can never exactly 'read' their mind.. what you can do is just TRUST.. They are your precious.. and we have to keep them carefully..

for people.. i think God already given us a precious 'gem' inside everybody.. sometimes i 'see' it in them.. but then.. i can never see the gem inside me.. i know we all have including me.. im just can never seen it..
i hope i can see it inside me soon.. when that time comes i must have already accepted my whole self.. but it will take a really long time i think..

watever im talking here are just my random thoughts.. im just happy with it.. and have no regret of sharing it.. thanks to have read my thing.. hope you get something useful from it..
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my bad and my good.. so far.. i only can see my bad.. and never my good..